10.29.2009

Blind Bartimaeus & Plastic Forks, Among Other Things

(Sermon preached October 25th, 2009 @ SBCC)

They came to Jericho. As he and his disciples and a large crowd were leaving Jericho, Bartimaeus son of Timaeus, a blind beggar, was sitting by the roadside. When he heard that it was Jesus of Nazareth, he began to shout out and say, “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!” Many sternly ordered him to be quiet, but he cried out even more loudly, “Son of David, have mercy on me!” Jesus stood still and said, “Call him here.” And they called the blind man, saying to him, “Take heart; get up, he is calling you.” So throwing off his cloak, he sprang up and came to Jesus. Then Jesus said to him, “What do you want me to do for you?” The blind man said to him, “My teacher, let me see again.” Jesus said to him, “Go; your faith has made you well.” Immediately he regained his sight and followed him on the way.
(Mark 10:46-52)


After a while all these healing stories sort of run together, don't they? Sometimes it's a leper, sometimes it's a woman. Sometimes the person seeks out the Great Physician for himself, and sometimes friends or family ask Jesus on their behalf. Sometimes the one being healed is on the brink of death; sometimes he or she has already died. Sometimes Jesus heals by touch, and sometimes the miracles happen by the power of his words. Sometimes the recipient of his healing is told to share the good news; sometimes he is cautioned to tell no one. But one thing is always the same, it seems. There is always a crowd of onlookers, watching the saga unfold like an episode of General Hospital.

This particular healing story begins with a man who just won't shut up. There are a couple of these in the gospels - people who are convinced that Jesus is the one who can release them from their suffering, and who won't take no for an answer. So Blind Bartimaeus is hollering up a storm as Jesus and his Disciples leave Jericho. "Son of David, have mercy on me!" Now, maybe the crowd of curious seekers and disciples was just tired out from a long day of keeping up with Jesus in Jericho. But they don't have the patience for the demands of this beggar. No matter that what he begs for is mercy. They respond with jeers. They rebuke him and tell him to be quiet.

He persists.

Apparently, he is loud enough to catch the ear of Jesus, even above the din of the moving crowd and their rude rebukes. "Call him," he commands.

Well, now that Jesus is interested in this blind beggar, the crowd suddenly gives him the time of day. Bartimaeus responds to their invitation by tossing his cloak aside - likely his one and only possession - and dashing to the feet of Jesus.

What Jesus says to him throws me for a loop. "What do you want me to do for you?"

Isn't that sort of obvious, Jesus? You're looking at a man who is not only obviously blind, but whose disability has wreaked havoc on his entire life. Without the capacity to see, Bartimaeus has been unable to hold a job, raise a family, make a life. Of course he wants to see! Did you ever doubt it?

And see he does. Jesus claims that his faith has healed him. And so the man who once was blind but now can see begins his new life by following in the footsteps of the one who made it so.

It's all pretty straightforward, right? Nothing terribly out of the ordinary, except of course for the extraordinary healing.

Except, well, the more I read this, the more it seems that Bartimaeus is far from the only blind man in the story. It seems to me that in some ways he is one of the few folks in the story who is not blind - figuratively speaking, of course.

Bartimaeus, though blind, sees who Jesus is. He sees this even before Jesus grants him his heart's deepest wish, for his eyes to behold light and dark and color and movement. Meanwhile, all those folks who had left behind their families and jobs to follow Jesus... well, they still don't get it. Here they are, filled with teachings about the Kingdom of God, and they think that they are supposed to help keep the beggars in their place. They think that they are supposed to protect Jesus from the low lifes who have nothing but a cloak and a gutter to call home. This crowd is as blind as bats. They are groping around in the dark crevass between what they believe and how they behave.

You want more proof of that? Consider what happened immediately before this little episode. Jesus had just pulled his disciples aside to warn them about what was coming. "We are going up to Jerusalem," he said, "and the Son of Man will be betrayed to the chief priests and teachers of the law. They will condemn him to death and will hand him over to the Gentiles, who will mock him and spit on him, flog him and kill him. Three days later he will rise.

And then, without missing a beat, "James and John, the sons of Zebedee, came to him. "Teacher," they said, "we want you to do for us whatever we ask.""What do you want me to do for you?" he asked. They replied, "Let one of us sit at your right and the other at your left in your glory."

Did you hear that? The same question, worded exactly the same way. "What do you want me to do for you?" And such a very different answer. Blind Bartimaeus wanted nothing more to see. And James and John had designs on the best seats in heaven. You tell me, who is truly blind?

The difference is this: Bartimaeus sees well enough to know that he is blind. But the disciples and the crowd have a much more serious disability, a moral disability, a spiritual sightlessness. They have compartmentalized the gospel from their lives. They think they are being faithful, yet they turn around and humiliate a man for seeking mercy.

Compartmentalization is one of humankind's favorite tools. It allows us to trick ourselves into believing the best about ourselves. It allows us to get away with things that are against our deepest convictions, because it allows us to separate our ethics, our actions, and their consequences.

It's what allows corrupt CEOs to exploit their workers, cheat their shareholders, and amass vast personal wealth while rarely missing a Sunday church service. But I think that's too easy a shot, too far from home. So far as I know, none of us are in charge of shady corporations.

But there is a form of compartmentalization that nearly everyone is guilty of, and it's the reason our poor earth is so beleaguered and abused. As Christians, we believe that God created the world, called it good, and charged us to be good stewards of its resources. And yet, don't we all, to some extent or another, allow ourselves to be blind to the environmental consequences of our actions?

Do we really contemplate where our trash goes when the big truck comes to pick it up once a week, or are we simply relieved that it's off our hands? Sure, we pull out the recyclables... most of the time. When it's convenient.

Consider this scenario from a book I picked up at the library recently. "Let's say I go to a food court at a mall and eat a meal with a disposable plastic fork. Let's say I use the fork for five minutes before one of the tines breaks (as always seems to happen) and I throw it out. The fork goes in the garbage and is buried in the landfill. Let’s say this particular type of plastic takes five thousand years to break down... for every minute I used the fork it spends a thousand years as waste: a ratio of one to 526 million, a number so large it is hardly meaningful to human minds.
On a scale that's easier to fathom, if we compressed the fork's five thousand year existence to one year, the form would have spent only six one-hundredths of a second as an object useful to me."

Yes, the things that are most often labeled "disposable" are the very things that take the longest to break down - if they ever really do. The concern isn't only for the earth, or the countless creatures whose habitats are destroyed by our wayward refuse. The chemicals in those plastics may have a very real effect on human health as well. Yet it would be quite inconvenient to connect the dots, decompartmentalize the compartments. If we start really taking seriously the ramifications of our faith and the results of our actions, well, we might have to make some inconvenient changes.

After reading about that plastic fork, I couldn't get it off my mind. Sure, I sort of knew that's how it worked, but I had never really thought about it before. I've allowed myself just enough blindness to toss away hundreds of plastic forks in my time - though not at Third Thursday Fellowship events, of course, because we all know that those forks are washed and reserved for next time. And then it dawned on me that we don't have to go to the mall food court to find the nearest source of disposable plastic. Every single Sunday, our worship service includes Communion. And almost every single Sunday we receive the cup of salvation in disposable plastic cups. The largest landfill on earth floats in the middle of the Pacific Ocean, somewhere between California and Hawaii. And it breaks my heart to think that it is a very real possibility that more than a few communion cups are tangled into the Great Pacific Garbage Patch.

It is easier and a whole lot more comfortable to compartmentalize.

Even if the crowd recognized its blindness, I'm not convinced they would want to give it up anyway. I'm not convinced they want to see the truth, because the truth would demand them to change. If they had even a glimpse of the Kingdom of God, they could no longer cling to their own comfort first. If their eyes were open to Jesus' vision of justice, in which the first become last and the last become first, they could no longer clamor for the highest honor or the best seat. Yes, if the crowd were healed of their spiritual blindness, they would be profoundly inconvenienced.

How bold are we? When Jesus asks us what we want for him to do for us, are we bold enough to ask him to pull the scales from our eyes? Are we courageous enough to ask him to help us change, or do we want to stay in our comfortable cocoons, seeing only what we want to see?

It is a bold risk, for sure, but I’ve never once met a Christian who didn’t think that the grace of God was worth more than anything they’d left behind. The cost of discipleship may be high, but the rewards are great. Thanks be to God.

10.27.2009

Ten on Tuesday

1. Juliette had a good day at school today. Last Thursday was the first day she didn't pitch a major fit when we dropped her off... and then she ended up getting bitten by one of her classmates in a see-saw related skirmish. The kid can't catch a break. (It didn't break the skin. And the incident report noted that the teacher's response was "ice and a big hug.")

2. Charlie and Lola is my best and favorite children's television show EVER. Oh, is it ever completely, extremely delightful.
3. I had lunch today with my dearest Allison at our favorite restaurant, The Spot. Yummy yummy savory sauce.

4. Yesterday morning I accidentally dropped an entire container of dry laundry soap into the washing machine and spent the next half hour scooping and vacuuming it up. Luckily it did not result in a soap-flooded garage.

5. I really loved my sermon on Sunday. Am I allowed to say that? I meant to post it here, but keep forgetting to pick up the revised version from the church computer. It was about, among other things, the healing of Blind Bartimaeus and... drum roll... plastic forks.

6. I have been more active on Facebook lately, so I've already posted most of this over there. Next month's Update Update is going to be rather redundant. Oh well.

7. I wrote the cover story about John the Baptist for the November-December issue of Disciples World, which apparently started arriving in mailboxes today (though lamentably not mine).

8. I miss my sisters. Sigh...

9. We went to the pumpkin patch to get a couple sugar pumpkins for pie-making purposes. I've been admiring all these pumpkin patch shots on various blogs lately, and while I did take maybe one or two pictures, my heart wasn't in it. Our pumpkin patch is in the mall parking lot, not some picturesque autumnal woodsy farm.

10. I didn't think I'd be ready for another season of So You Think You Can Dance so soon, but as it turns out, I am. Bring on the Mia Michaels, baby! My current favorites are the crumper and the girl tapper.

Happy Tuesday!

10.19.2009

I Scrapbooked!

Our church has a new tradition of making a scrapbook for members who move away. Dear Betty has moved to be closer to her daughter, and boy do we miss her. She's coming back for a potluck this Sunday (shhh, it's a surprise) and we'll present her with the book. This picture... I didn't know it was being taken, and when her daughter sent it to me later, it took my breath away: a visual confirmation of my vocation. Yes, I am a pastor. Not just a preacher, but a pastor. The calligraphed psalm was done by Betty herself - a gift for my study. The original is 8x10, but I shrank it with the Xerox machine. It is scrapbooking at its most rudimentary, but it's special. Just like Betty.

10.16.2009

Update Update (2)

(oldest to newest)

Katherine...
  • just got scared half to death by a sonic boom.
  • is seriously indebted to her new massage therapist. No more back pain! Not even a twinge.
  • just asked Juliette if she wanted a "tasty snack", and Juliette responded, as if in horror, "NO!!!" Ah, life with a toddler.
  • is beside herself with happiness for Susan and Selam.
  • just finished writing a hymn to the tune of Vicar.
  • loves preaching, but also loves NOT preaching. Always a win-win situation.
  • cannot believe that Ben just scored 130 points with one word in Lexulous. Thyroidal.
  • is so proud of Juliette for doing great at her first day of pre-preschool.
  • Homemade Trader Joe's graham cracker crust + chocolate pudding mix + homemade whipped cream = ahhhhhhhh.
  • just alarmed Ben by wondering aloud if jackalopes are real.
  • HATES TERMITES.
  • is reminded once again that parenting a toddler is no joke. When she was good she was very very good, and when she was bad...
  • saw Whip It and Loved It.
  • encourages all her YCW friends to go to Fidelia's Sisters and leave a comment about their favorite FS article for a chance to win a $50 gift certificate to Chalice Press!
  • is proud of the President, thought his speech was classy, and celebrates that the global perception of the US has been so dramatically transformed by our inspirational and progressive leader.
  • watched Juliette's first encounter with those Littlest Pet Shop toys today, and wow, do they ever have the Appealing To Little Girls magic down.
  • is listening to a storm come in. Oh, rain, where have you been? We've missed you. But please have mercy on the scalded hillsides, and the people who live in the valleys below...
  • has a toddler who wakes up at 5am and demands grated parmesan cheese for breakfast.
  • wishes so much she could be in Ohio this weekend.

10.06.2009

Ten on Tuesday

1. Random memory: When I stopped pegging my jeans in the 8th grade, a popular girl approached me and asked me why my pants weren't pegged. I was completely mortified, but managed to cough up that my sister was in college and had told me nobody pegged their jeans anymore. She gave me a withering look and said, "This isn't college. This is middle school."

2. I do not like scary Halloween displays, and have another random memory to go along with my dislike. I was perhaps three. I was staying with my Grandma Watson, and we went to K-Mart. We saw a life-sized monster in the Halloween section. I woke up to a scary nightmare about the monster in the middle of the night. To calm me down, my grandma made me a bowl of oatmeal. I was so worked up that I couldn't hold it down. I refused to eat oatmeal again for years. Now I love oatmeal but still can't stand scary monsters.

3. I'm on a Roald Dahl tear, in preparation for the release of The Fantastic Mr. Fox in a few weeks. I've read most though not all of his books, and have been rewatching some of my favorite movie adaptations. I really like them, although my post-seminary mind is picking up on his recurring themes of retributive justice. There are a lot of just desserts in the world of Mr. Dahl, sometimes literally (a la C&tCF).

Be still my heart - Wes Anderson + Roald Dahl:



4. Juliette loves edamame, peas, corn, carrots, broccoli, and cauliflower. The other night she ate nearly a grown-up sized portion of cauliflower, between the raw pieces she ate while I was making dinner and all the extras she stole from our plates. She also loves chocolate milk.

5. First full sentence, spoken over and over and over again while constrained in the Target cart: "I wanna walk!!"

6. Sometimes I write about an issue here, and never follow up about how it turned out. Like this? It turned out just fine.

7. As for The Dog Issue, which I wrote about almost a year ago? We went through with it a few weeks later. I wrote a limerick about it, which is a sad commentary on how deeply I (did not) feel the loss. It is simultaneously the best and grossest thing I've ever written:

There once was a puggle named Atticus
Whose master oft' called him Sir Fatticus

From his rear came a paste

We feared the toddler woul
d taste
So he's back at the pound...

Don't be mad at us.


I guess because fall is the time I think most about dogs (still missing Deacon like crazy, three [!?] years later), I've been thinking about poor Atticus, hoping he found a home that could handle his unique combination of cuteness and energy and stench.

8. Members of The Young Clergywomen Project need to check out Fidelia's Sisters for the recent series of 2nd anniversary giveaways. One is a $50 gift certificate to Chalice Press, and the other is a stole (red, green, or purple) handmade by Anna Montgomery of Gloria Vestments. Comment to win!

9. My sisters and I are, er, tumblring together at The Trifecta. It's fun.

10. Today all the wonderful photos that Marie has taken of our family arrived on a CD. Woohoo! There are some really, really great ones in here. This one shows off my anniversary gift, an amethyst jacaranda ring by Allison. I love it. Ben saw me see it at her Etsy shop for the first time - falling all over myself about the amethyst and the jacaranda and the oh my goodness isn't it beautiful? And then it turned up in a little pouch on July 13th. That boy.